Full-Blown Agony: A Personal Fight Against the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headaches

It was a dreary weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a intense pain erupted behind my one eye. It was followed by rapid jolts, similar to lightning bolts. As each class progressed, the discomfort subsided and then came back with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried aspirin, but the agony remained unbearable.

The headaches appeared repeatedly that fall, and once more in the spring, soon establishing an annual pattern. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the routine: aura in the morning, early twinges on the commute, full-blown agony in the classroom by mid-morning. In late 2019, a doctor eventually referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

This condition typically start with severe pain around a single eye that persists for three hours.

About 1 in 1000 people are affected by the disorder, and men are more often diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically begin with sudden, severe pain focused on one eye that reaches its peak within minutes and continues for as long as three hours. Attacks come in clusters, every day or multiple times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. I have an episodic type, which occurs in periodic bouts; some patients have continuous attacks, defined by the lack of extended pain-free periods.

What connects patients is the intensity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, higher than broken bones or other conditions. Another found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced suicidal thoughts during attacks; the figure dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the floor and hit my head. That was attributed to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through her youth. Alcohol in her adolescence, similar to many causes, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often mistook her episodes as intoxicated behavior. Support finally came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after moving, but often concealed her illness. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to absences during episodes. Her breakthrough identification came in the early 2000s at a national hospital.

Still, the inability to organize life around erratic pain took its effect. She particularly hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the small liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been documented throughout the ages. “The earliest account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the topic. They linked the ailment to an malevolent entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Historical medical texts propose bizarre treatments for what modern experts would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a separate condition, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more folk cures.

It was a European doctor who provided the first comprehensive account of a cluster-type attack. In his writings, he describes a patient “suffering with a very severe headache happening and disappearing each day at specific hours”.

The disorder were only officially classified by global headache societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a major blood vessel which delivers blood to the head. Leading experts in diagnosing the disorder explain this.

In 1998, scientists published the findings of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, featured in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered.

In spite of such progress, identification remains slow. One man's symptoms began in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent multiple operations before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a physician researched his symptoms.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other primary headache disorders, such as tension-type headache, before confirming the disorder. A thorough history is essential: on which side do symptoms appear? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Specific characteristics such as redness, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But many first arrive to emergency rooms or are given inadequate therapies.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for most of her adult life, although she has been free from an episode since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her symptoms. She thinks the dental profession still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who responded. The author recalls calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a calm volunteer talked them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode passed.

National guidelines on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the bouts of well-known individuals.

But leading specialists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the cycle determines the approach.” Brief cycles with infrequent attacks are handled with abortive treatment only. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the area of the skull where the discomfort is that decreases nerve signals.

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